Tis the Season of...Weddings?

I've noticed a recent trend. Many people are getting engaged. I'm not going to lie, its kind of freaking me out. People older, the same age, and younger than me are getting engaged left and right. I feel like everyday I found out about someone else getting engaged. It's crazy. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for all these people! Some of the people who are getting married are great friends and have had a huge influence on my life.

I guess one reason it scares me is because it makes me realize how old I am. I'm reaching a time in my life where marriage is no longer something that is far away and something "adults" do. I'm an adult now. I just don't feel like I'm old enough to be married. I am nowhere near ready (and I'm sure Mom and Dad are relieved to hear that)!

What gets me is that thinking is often directed to me? Almost everyday I hear someone asks if there is a boy in my life or if I have any new prospects. Sorry people, I don't. And no offense, I don't want one right now.

I feel like I'm just getting started as an adult. I'm getting ready for graduate school. I'm moving into my own place off campus. I'm just learning how to handle things for myself as an adult. I can't handle anyone else right now. I appreciate all the guy friends I have, I do, but I'm just not ready for a relationship. My own life is too crazy and confusing right now and I feel like being in a relationship is just not right for me.

Besides, I want to take advantage of any opportunities I have left to be a kid. These moments are far and few, but I want to cherish every opportunity I get. They will disappear as I get older and right now I want to enjoy life for all its worth! I have been blessed with so much and I just want to focus on the good things in life and the next step for me!